NT Scan

It took me a few days to write this post.  Let me start by saying I am so happy to have one healthy little baby!  The NT scan helps rule out/identify risks for chromosomal disorders.  One of the markers for down syndrome is a nuchal translucency fold of 3 mm or greater.  Our little sweetpea had a measurement of 1.2 mm, and everything else looked great!  I can not tell you how much I love this little one.

That said, we did get some sad news.  If you remember, around 5-6 weeks I had some significant bleeding and Jason and I thought that we lost the baby.  We had an ultrasound the next day and we saw one healthy baby with a heartbeat.  My doctor attributed the bleeding to a subchorionic hematoma.  As it turns out, it was determined at our NT scan that we lost a twin.  I am so happy to have a healthy baby, but I am so sad that we lost a little one.  I feel guilty that when we were overjoyed thinking our baby was healthy, really we lost a baby.  Instead of mourning the loss of that baby we were celebrating.

My sister-in-law asked if I was glad to know, or wished that I didn't find out.  I can honestly say I am so glad that I know about this little one. For one reason, initially I secretly thought this was a twin pregnancy.  My blood work was doubling every 1.3 days and I just thought there was more than one baby.  Additionally, the bleeding I had was so significant that it was hard to picture it as a normal healthy bleed. I feel more in tune with my body by knowing this.  Also, I just can't imagine having lost a twin and not even knowing about it.  I know it happens regularly, but personally I'm glad I know.  I've cried some big cries and I'm sure I have a few left in me. 

I keep imagining my life with two babies.  I know that will go away in time.  On a side note - I want to drop kick the people that have said, "thank goodness you lost a baby.  Having twins would be way too much work".  Not really what I want to be hearing people.

I'll post a picture of the second gestational sack tomorrow.  Right now I'm too lazy to upload pictures. 

Let me finish this post by saying, we have one healthy little baby and I could not be more happy about that!!!!  (It's a weird place to be both happy and sad at the same time).